hmm

there are like so, so many things on my mind now. don't know what to say. i totally knocked out yesterday, slept for twelve hours straight. it was pure shiokness :D

you know, i don't know if i have the right to be angry with you. i know whatever that you do and whatever that you say, is for the good of me. and perhaps the way that you're trying to convey your messages to me aint exactly what i'm comfortable with, and i'm still trying to accept that you, i'm still trying to be positive about it. it's been almost eighteen long years, but i don't know. i used to think i was immature in the past, that i wasn't aware of your kind intentions. but i've sort of grown up already and i think i know the reason you say some things. but it still doesn't stop me from making me angry, it doesn't stop me from cursing. i think i am right sometimes, but you're the one that is supposed to be the role model. you're never wrong. it irritates me. it's exasperating, because i don't want to feel this way. i feel guilty for feeling this way. but then again, i can't help it. but there's nothing i can do.

i heart scten! topig sucks? ): can't believe i actually wasted my tears on this kind of person. urgh, bloody fucker. sigh, i guess what we can do right now, is not to let him get us down. because we can all do it okay! let's prove him wrong scten! show him that we can do it, and perhaps that'll motivate him to lose some weight. wtf, he's only in his late thirties -.- he looks like mid forties? and his face looks like a piece of bread.

went for the humanness lecture on fri with sock, because all the other people -looks at brandon didn't want to come with me! ): there wasn't any like answers to all the questions, but it was certainly thought-provoking. like, how do you know that you're a human? what defines a human? if you say things like, two eyes, two ears and a mouth. then spare a thought for people who do not have them. does that make them any less human than we are?

and if you say, any body that posseses a soul. then what is a soul? how do you know that you have a soul? can a soul be measured? does the soul still live on after you die?

it sounds pretty rubbish, but i actually do wonder about stuff like that. weird huh. but i don't think any of you can find a perfect answer to that question.

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ahh shupi is helping me with my sound system =\ i feel damn bad, but he's really damn niceeeeee (: (: (: and shupi's very cute! haha, SPFC! who's in it man! ahaha. man, simeng, i swear we're turning into full time paedophiles >< but he's really very cuteeeeee (: (: and niceeeee. hahaha. thankyou shupi for everything that you've done for mee (: though i doubt you'll be reading this. shupi wan sui!