happy cny

So thank you for standing right by me
So thank you for being behind me
And watching me grow and letting others know
That you still believe in what I'll be

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there's a lot of things running through my head right now. i think visiting is tiring. i think visiting is so plastic. especially when you are around a bunch of people you call relatives whom you are not close t, at all. especially if you have to put up with all the ostracising and hidden attacks. how you have to pretend you didnt know that your cousins received an angpao from this agogo uncle whom you call your granduncle, but your family didnt. how everything has t be returned and split so clearly. how forced you look saying a goodbye when we took our leave. is this what you call family? there's so much hypocrisy. i'm pretty.. disgusted.

oh well, i'm not referring t everybody. my dear cousin gabriel and his family are excluded. hah.

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at the beginning of the year, i promised myself many things. and i'm not proud t say that i have not been able t keep/uphold whatever i wanted t do. but seeing shawn work so hard and all, i'm beginning t get a little motivated. hrms.

actually i had alot of things t blog about. but i'm not in the mood.

so . till later. happy cny by the way.