Mr L.

Mr L,

so the day for all teachers' have finally arrived again, how do you feel? am i supposed to say happy teacher's day to you? are you supposed to be feeling happy and touched by how your students have expressed their gratitude to you? or are you thinking about why you didnt receive that many cards/presents.

i'm sorry you had to receive that pathetic card from our class, i felt quite bad after thinking about it. i think it'd be better if you didnt receive anything. were you wondering why half the card was empty, did the sight of the card tear your heart apart?

what good is he in your eyes? do you like him being egoistic, being too full of himself? or have you missed someone being especially nice to you? but in the first place, did you ever ask yourself why students aint nice to you.

you practice favouritism, deny it all you want. but we have eyes to see. so what have i done wrong, for you to dislike me. is it my black face or is it because i do not do well in the only subject you are capable in. or is it because i do not do your tutorials. but then again, the last two reasons would not be valid. because your pet's tutorials are also always always blank and he doesn't do well in bio. are you severely myopic when it comes to looking at him?

you know it really amazes me how you think an E grade in a subject is better compared to a D. but then again, it was your pet with the E grade. he is perfect, he is god-like. you love him so much that i have this slight fantasy that you have this altar to worship him. another wild imagination which i have is him polishing your boots every single day. i'm entitled to random thoughts, am i?

have you realised how much you have hurt me, or the rest? have you realised how much you have trampled on my self-confidence, when my self-esteem was already limited? have you realised each time i stand up and decide to face your bloody subject again, you never fail to say something to just push me down again.

is this what you call a teacher? the basis of every teacher is to be encouraging and to be caring. he also has to always always believe in their students. yet each time you say things like, " i really dont know what to do with you all", " i only give the conduct excellence to people who are special to me, good is actually no good in my eyes". you say we aint trying, you say we dont try hard enough. yet when we do, you say we are not good enough. so what the hell do you want? have you ever thought of how much you have hurt us, how much you have hurt our pride, how much you have left our self-confidence fall to just above zero.

so now we're hurting you back. you deserved it. this teacher's day, you received nothing from us. just a half-filled card. you deserved it. you really did. i hope we get a new teacher next year, one who will love us, for the way we are(stupid or ugly).

maybe you're reflecting on why things turned out this way.
but then again, you dont even care. are you even affected?

but with the little bit of respect i have for you, yes Mr L, happy teacher's day.

Regards,
huimin.

-


ps, if i get into trouble just because of my views, i wldnt mind the trouble. only if what i'm trying to tell you(Mr L) gets into your brain.